Eve in Hong Kong

Loneliness does not come from having no people around one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible.

(Source: thisisnotpsychology, via thepracticeofeverydaylife-deact)

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Last time I visited for a holiday was 2007, last time living there was 2002/2003. I hope you’re safe from the riots!!

raspberry-coulis replied to your post: Change.

When’s the last time you were here (London)? I’m here right now :)

9 months ago

Change.

Panic stations for me of late. Wondering what’s gonna happen if/when we move, now that everyone knows we are moving, now I’m scared that it will be a disaster. Going from one disaster to another. It’s scary being scared of change. It doesn’t help that the city we are moving to (London) is falling into anarchy!

I’ve never been scared of change or of new places but being here in HK has done something to me, I dunno quite what it is but I feel like I’ve lost something in me and i don’t know how to get it back? I don’t know whether I’m genuinely worried to move back to London because of the struggle to find work or an apt or because I haven’t been there for a long time and places change. I dunno what the concern is about really. And the hardest thing is that even tho I don’t love it here I still feel like its my fault we have failed in this part of our lives. It was my turn to let Jac have her time in her country with her family and I’d find a job and it would work and it just hasn’t been like that at all. So much has happened these 6 mths that I feel so overwhelmed and no matter how much we discuss it and we both agree that it’s best to go, I can’t help but feel that I’ve failed Jac in this part of our life and that makes me really sad. I don’t know what to do.

9 months ago -

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